Am a MOM now

Reason for being Happy

After getting married, slowly and steadily i did not realize that i had become impatient and grumpy. Small incidents made me upset and became the root cause of my unhappiness. i did not realize but i have already started taking tensions like females running houses for years. and could not find happiness in things. i used to really think hard before smiling. and did not realize that i have become a BIG BORE by now.

well all of the sudden unwillingly (here the reason why i am stressing on this word is my hubby went out of station for some work and was forced to go to mom's place) i had to land up to my mom's place. the reason for putting it in a bad manner is not that i dont love my mom, its the travelling time involved in going to and fro from her place... well thats not the imp. part here. so as i mentioned i had completely forgotten what joy is and how to be happy. after a super tiff with one of my train mate i was travelling alone by the local train and wen i reached shivajinagar and was looking for a rick to reach my office. A thought came to my mind and i plugged my IPOD and started walking towards my office. oh that walk was the walk of 2010 i must say. i was so happy to be with myself after a long time.. and it was fun staring at people & things happening around. As i have a habit of waking up late i missed my tea, so i bought a cutting chai at a tapri and enjoyed it to the fullest. I felt so good that i realized that everybody can be happy without reason.

Transformation -from girl to woman

The journey from a girl to a woman has been weird and shocking too. I am saying shocking because it not only added to my existing roles of being a daughter and a sister but it also transformed me into a mature ( I mean to say boring here) human being. I still remember those days where I use to surf net for rosy love poems and romantic love letters. Much towards reality these days I look for tips to de-clutter the house or healthy recipes. Romance has flown away from my life and I struggle to write few romantic lines for my hubby dear ( poor soul). The hobby of watching birds ( I hope u are smart enough to wat I mean) has shifted to car watching as I feel car is necessary for conveyance. I have started hating rains like pritam (he is the one who shares my birthday and is totally annoying when it comes to views and we always are opposite in likes and dislikes). I initially used to love rains so much that when it used to pitter patter I used to close my files and start humming songs.

I am scared that if I continue being like this I will stop enjoying my life soon and be boring and not very happening and rocking. Working towards not getting old, I have followed my fren’s advice again I refer to pritam here and have hired a maid to cook one meal. Still I keep bothering myself if madam maid do not arrive at time and get restless in the mornings. But I promise myself that I will get myself back ….oh that dreamy me with whom I am in love 

Being a lawyer

Working of Govt. offices is really pathetic at all the times and being a lawyer I have to bear with it.

As usual today also i am stucked at the desk of a clerk in the court who promised me ( i have to term his words as promise coz they came out of his mouth with assurance) that he will be back to his workplace in 5 mins. and now i am sitting here since the moment when the big hand of the sarkari clock was at 12, it has traveled from the digit 12 to 6 and i find no trace of this idiot clerk.

I am quite tense as i need to expedite this suit (sorry for the legal words i meant to say the case ) coz my boss has promised me a conditional leave stating that you get this case admitted before the court and i will grant you a leave for 5 days.

so here i am sitting idle with this expected 5 mins and not required free time and observing a group of female clerks nearby who have already started enjoying their lunch break which supposedly starts at 2 pm. and before i start envying them here comes the head clerk;my wait is over and his five mins too :). i checked the sarkari ghadi once again ( the big hand was on 8 by now) and it was waiving a goodbye to me. I handed over the papers to the clerk and headed towards my office.

hey i am back and this time i am planning to jot down all observations wat i have noticed about women. i got a chance to closely observe females, their feelings and their expectations; and the results wen all this things are not taken care of.

1st woman i met: recently met a friend of mine, who is seeing a boy for a long time. She was sounding happy and i could make it out from her chirpy voice that many good things are happening in her life. but down the line, she came up with this statement that her guy do not speak out his feelings to her and therefore, she is in a dilemma whether he loves her or not?

advice: Girls, guys are not bothered whether they have express their love towards you; Trust me they are reckless and insensitive; inspite of all this they love you alot. so stop worrying.

Hey wait for the next encounter ;)

QUOTES

Those who don't know how to weep with their whole heart, don't know how to laugh either- Golda meir

Everything you can imagine is real.
- Pablo Picasso

Its a lazy summer afternoon and i am sitting before the computer not feeling like working at all. I tried to concentrate on work or cleat the clutter on my table but am not feeling like doing so. Then i decided to listen music but then i realized that my head is aching badly since morning so i am not eligible to that too. so finally i logged in my blogger account and thought of scribbling something. first i thought of writing a poem but i knw as soon as i do so.. mr. pritam(eager to take a revenge for the bad comments i gave to his poem) is gonna gimme me his valuable comments on how bad i have written it. so the safest way is to just write down what i feel.

I am getting bored badly and getting a feeling that the work here has become monotonous and there's nothing new that i can take up as challenge right now. My routine i.e working in the office and then hitting the gym, has snatched away from me my joy of shopping too and life has become very sad and lonely.

i think, i am getting this feeling coz of my birthday coming closer and me getting old by a year. the thought of getting old is not so pleasant for me at least.

can someone please suggest me how am suppose to be happy?????